home now, sunburned and tired - drove two hours out of my way to pickup thekate and bring her back to Melbourne for the weekend, we had a long, beautiful, frank, adult discussion on the four hour drive about our relationship and the reasons why it was doomed to failure (the primary one being left out for the moment by yours truly, for fear of an uncontrollable banshee in his car). All was going well until about an hour south of Melbourne when she burst into tears and said "yes, but i know all that now, and if i'm aware of it, then can't we be together anyway?" I guess that the whole time i've been dating her i've been trying desperately to treat her like an adult, whilst knowing deep down that she's a child. A highly intelligent child, but a child nonetheless. It's my fault, i know, for painting her pictures of a romantic life together, for taking her out and showering her with affection in a way which could only serve to bewilder and bedazzle her. Now i'm left with this petulant little girl who stamps her foot and whines......but whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy You can't imagine how badly i just want to get some closure, some cash and a plane ticket..... hangon gang, i''m coming.
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